<TITLE>07. Par 26-30</TITLE>L-26 And I said, "Honey, at the resurrection, you stand over at the east side of the gate. And when you see Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, coming in, when you see all the saints coming in, stand there by the post, and keep saying, 'Bill, Bill.' I'll have the children, and I'll meet you there." That's my last date with my wife. By God's help, I'll keep it. She went to be with God. We taken her down to the undertaker.
And then they come to me and said, "Billy, your baby's dying too." Oh I said, "No, it can't be." And I rushed to the hospital, and there lay my little baby, dying. Oh, my heart...
"The way of a transgressor is hard." Remember that. When God calls you, go on, no matter what anybody says. You serve God.

L-27 I laid my hands on my little baby, and I said, "God, please don't take my baby. Let her live." She was my little darling, and I couldn't stand to see her go. And it looked like a black sheet come down. Then I raised up, and put my hand on her head, raised up my hand to God. I said, "God, I'm sorry that I have done the way I did. Forgive me, and please keep my baby here with me. I love her. There lays her mother, dead. Don't take my baby, too. I promise you I will preach. I don't care what the world says." My heart was breaking, but I know I had to reap what I sowed. I put my hand on the baby again, said, "God, not my will, but Your will be done." And the Angels come, packed her away. Oh, my heart...

L-28 I went out; I didn't know what to do. I put her in her mother's arms and put her down in the ground. A few Easters ago I took--I took my little--my Billy Paul and a little flower to the grave, went early one morning. And the little fellow coming up to the grave, we took off our hats, and he started crying. And he caught me by the hand. He said, "Daddy, you've been mother and daddy both to me. Is my mother down there?"
I said, "No, son. Way beyond the river, her soul is in the Presence of God, and your little sister's there too. And in Jerusalem, there's a empty tomb. And she was in Christ, and she'll come forth too some morning." And I held him up to my bosom; the little fellow was crying. And I said, "Honey, daddy's got to preach the Gospel. I get lots of persecutions, but someday, you and I, we'll meet Mommy in peace with God." We put the flower on the grave. We walked away. [Blank.spot.on.tape--Ed.]

L-29 When she has dead--when she was dead, and I went out and buried her, I couldn't get over it. I--I could see her going, but I couldn't see the baby going. Why should that little baby go? And I was working, trying to pay off the debts. And I was living in a little shanty house, just one room, and a little old cot. And the little old... The floor would be freezing over with ice, at night. And one night I come in, and I picked up some mail, and in there had a letter to Miss Sharon Rose Branham. Oh, my. My heart ached. And I--I knelt down and started praying. I said, "Father, I can't stand it no more. I--I--I just can't live. My baby, my wife, what can I do?"

L-30 And then, being a game warden (a game warden, conservation officer), I--I took my gun, pulled back the hammer, and put it up to my head, and raised my hand. I said, "Oh, God, I hate to be a coward, but I can't stand it no more. I'm going mad. I have to take my life." And I pulled the trigger, and it would not fire. I pulled again, and it didn't fire. And then I opened it up, and there was the bullets in it. And I pulled the trigger then, up in the air, and it went off. I threw the gun away. I said, "Oh, God, I can't even rid myself. I worried. I love them. And I--I was getting delirious. And then a deep sleep come over me.


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